Very Bad Things

Well I think that this one may be a big bust! Yesterday I started cramping and bleeding really bad, pretty sure that ugly bitch came into town. She just can't stay the fuck away from me! I still have to go in for a pregnancy test because I guess that there have been people that have had full flow and still been pregnant. They moved it up to Sat. for me, so at least I don't have to act like I am pregnant until Monday.

I have a lot of questions for my Dr. that will probably not be answered. Not because he won't, but because I don't think he can. My "unexplained infertility" needs to be explained ASAP! When everything goes so perfectly, the ending should be perfect too, right! Maybe if my cycle was all kinds of fucked up, I may actually have a happy ending! Hubby and I had already decided that we would do 1 more (I know many people that have had success on their 3rd attempt). We'll take a month off (so I can compose myself), talk to the DR. about what he thinks is going on and gear up for the long 2 month process once again.

It may sound as though I am complaining about it a lot, but it is so hard to give up on having biological children when you should be able to have them. We should actually be able to get pregnant on our own because there IS NOTHING WRONG WITH US! I think I am going to add acupuncture this time. I have heard great things about it and know someone that used it and got the name of her Dr. We'll see how it goes, it can't hurt.

We are going to look into some adoption information. We both really want biological kids, but need to explore other options, just in case. I guess we can multi-task and look into that as well. If the 3rd attempt doesn't work we are taking the summer off to relax, have some fun and save some $$. We'll try naturally and possible continue with the acupuncture (he actually may do it too). We feel like we have been stuck at this point in our lives for the last 2 years and need a nice break from it all. We can't say that we won't do IVF again, but I think we'll re-access at the end of the summer, if we have to. Maybe the 3rd time is the charm for us as well!

PS., I hate pads!!! I have to use them, can't use tampons until after the pregnancy test. They are one of the most disgusting things to me!