3rd Times the Charm.....

Well, I was right. The beta came back as a big fat negative. I am totally bummed, but not hopeless. I spent about 3 days throwing myself a pity party, crying, cursing etc.., but am working through it. My mom and I went to see He's Just Not That Into You on Sat, which was really funny. Just what I needed to start to feel better. It also helped that yesterday I did a lot of work outside which included hoeing up some dirt. I think I took out some aggression on that for sure!

So, Dr. A called me today. I love him! I feel confident that if anyone can knock me up, it is him. We talked about possible problems and options. It appears that the only thing that is a little off is the embryo development. It is a little strange that this would happen because I am not old (in fertility terms), so this really shouldn't be an issue. I kept waiting to hear the words "egg donor", but luckily they are not that bad. Just slow. Options are this. Transfer 3 instead of 2. Initial thought...BRING IT ON! I am not scared of triplets, the only thing I am afraid of is it not working again. He also mentioned assisted hatching. With this they poke a small hole in the shell so it is easier for the embryo to hatch and attach. This would be an option because it could be the shell of the embryo is too thick and the embryo may not be able or have the energy to break out. Risk is the chance of identical twins because it can sometimes cause the embryo to split. Again...BRING IT ON! Not scared!

Also, will go back to Gonal F only protocol. He felt the quality was better with that only. Everything else seems fine. He is also going to give us a $1000.00 grant and free samples of Gonal to help with cost. These are more reasons why I love him as my Dr. So for now I am going to start Acupuncture (he referred me to someone that specializes in Acupuncture for Infertility), get my haircut and a highlight because my hair is looking a hot mess, hopefully get a massage and relax for the next month.

I am excited about the whole Acupuncture thing. I think that even if it helps to relax me, it is a good thing. Hubby is pissed, but getting over it. I love him too. I think he feels sorry for me more than anything.