9 Down 6 To Go

Today is 9dp3dt or 9 days past 3 day transfer for all you fertile people. 6 more long, agonizing days to wait until my beta. It is like an eternity for reals! What is making matters worse if the damn time change. I am all kinds of screwed up. 11:30, normal bedtime, feels like 10:30 so I can't fall asleep. 6:30 feels like 5:30 so I can't get up...geesh!

So dealing with that and the rest of the shitiness that was Sunday was rough. We got back from Cleveland, which was nice and the drive wasn't super terrible. Did some things around the house, yada, yada. Then in the evening here come the dreaded cramps. I couldn't believe this, it is a fucking nightmare....this bitch aunt better not be coming or I will lose my collective shit! The last time I didn't have cramps, but the end started with lovely spotting, which turned to heavier bleeding, then I had the worst cramps I have ever had in my life for about 15 minutes during the actually miscarriage. Then it all stopped.

So while this is different than the last time, it still felt like I was not just starting my period, but actually on it. That night just gets worse because I have horrific cramps, then I wake up at 1:30 in the morning sweating, then cold, then hot etc... this goes on for 2 hours. I think I finally fell back to sleep at about 3:30. Got up for work, still cramping and pouted all day. I got home and finally sat on the couch at about 8pm and lo and behold they went away. I can't even believe that they are gone. I keep waiting for them to start again or something else to happen, but I feel much better today.

I am still waiting for something to happen and I probably won't feel better until I make it to my testing date, but it does make me feel somewhat better and even, dare I say, positive about this cycle!n Hopefully I didn't just jinx myself.