Update

Well a lot has happened since my last post. Nothing very good might I add.

So, we went back for our 9 week appt and found out that I had a missed miscarrige. Basically, the development and heartbeat stopped around 8 weeks, but my body didn't recognize it so I continued to have all my pregnancy symptoms with NO bleeding, spotting or cramping. We were totally in shock and it was probably one of the worst days of my life. 1 week later I had a D&C to remove everything.

We spent the summer being very busy, we went on several vacations (which were much needed), enjoyed the marriage of my Brother in Law Jeremy and his awesome wife Lenna and just tried to deal with everything. We decided to give it another go at the end of October and found out the very beginning of December we were pregnant again. Then a few days later found out it is another early miscarriage. We met with Dr. A and we decided to do like a zillion blood tests to see if there was some sort of genetic or immune problem causing this to occure and then we waited 5 weeks. I just found out a few days ago that we are perfectly normal. This should be re-assuring, but to me it would be easier to find a problem. At least you know why this is happening. I feel like I traded one problem for another. Dr. A is still very optomistic and feels like these are all good things.

Hubby and I have talked about what to do next. I am not ready to give up just yet, but an starting the mourning process of POSSIBLY never experiencing pregnancy, childbirth etc.. all the things that are so important to me. We are talking more seriously about adoption and are beginning to look into that. We do have our little frozen one too, so we'll certainly give that one a chance.

Til next time....