Update

Well a lot has happened since my last post. Nothing very good might I add.

So, we went back for our 9 week appt and found out that I had a missed miscarrige. Basically, the development and heartbeat stopped around 8 weeks, but my body didn't recognize it so I continued to have all my pregnancy symptoms with NO bleeding, spotting or cramping. We were totally in shock and it was probably one of the worst days of my life. 1 week later I had a D&C to remove everything.

We spent the summer being very busy, we went on several vacations (which were much needed), enjoyed the marriage of my Brother in Law Jeremy and his awesome wife Lenna and just tried to deal with everything. We decided to give it another go at the end of October and found out the very beginning of December we were pregnant again. Then a few days later found out it is another early miscarriage. We met with Dr. A and we decided to do like a zillion blood tests to see if there was some sort of genetic or immune problem causing this to occure and then we waited 5 weeks. I just found out a few days ago that we are perfectly normal. This should be re-assuring, but to me it would be easier to find a problem. At least you know why this is happening. I feel like I traded one problem for another. Dr. A is still very optomistic and feels like these are all good things.

Hubby and I have talked about what to do next. I am not ready to give up just yet, but an starting the mourning process of POSSIBLY never experiencing pregnancy, childbirth etc.. all the things that are so important to me. We are talking more seriously about adoption and are beginning to look into that. We do have our little frozen one too, so we'll certainly give that one a chance.

Til next time....

7 weeks 3 days

So we had our first ultrasound yesterday and let me say I was soooo nervous. You buy these books that are suppossed to be helpful, but really just scare the living shit out of you talking about all the things that can go wrong. Fortunatly, everything went great!



We saw the baby (looks more like a tadpole or a blob), and Dr. A had to point everything out to me because it was really hard to tell what was what. The most amazing thing that we saw was this really little, fast flicker which was the heartbeat. It was so cool to see and it made us both finally feel like something is really going on in there.



We go back in 2 weeks for a 9 week ultrasound and as long as everything looks fine we will be released to my regular OB. One of the Nurses at the office said the next time it will look like a turtle :)

Week 5

So I think I am in my fifth week right now. The Dr. will be more concrete with this once we go for our ultrasound in a few weeks. Right now our baby(ies) is the size of an appleseed and is starting to form organs and systems. It's pretty amazing.

As for me I am feeling pretty good. Other than some fatigue and sore breasts I haven't had many other symptoms. When I get hungry now, I GET HUNGRY and need to eat ASAP. I don't think I have been to crazy emotionally, but Tim may have a better perspective on that. I keep taking pregnancy test just to make sure there still positive which Tim thinks is a little neurotic and I can't say I blame him.

14dp3dt

Or we can call it 2 days after a POSITIVE pregnancy test. It is official, I am knocked up finally after almost 3 long years! The nurse called on Friday afternoon at 2 and told me that there is no doubt that I am pregnant! They like the levels to be at 100 and mine happened to me at 340 or something like that. Because of this I don't have to go in for a repeat Beta, I could just go ahead and schedule the ultrasound. We go in 2 weeks to have a first look at our little bean.

We have told a few people (who knows how many people will find out now that my Grammie knows, she is the talking head of Germantown), but it's harder to keep things quiet when you go through IVF. Everyone know when everything happens. Well I shouldn't say everyone, all close friends and family. Some people won't know until the 2nd trimester.

I am excited that now I get to talk about the things that go along with pregnancy, instead of all the technical dr. stuff and stirrups and retrievals and transfers and eggs etc... We are cautiously optimistic. Trying to enjoy it since it to so so long to get here. Also a little anxious to find out how many we have. I think Hubby and I both kinda hope for twins, but 1 or 3 (nail biting) will make us just as happy. I have attached a picture of the first positive pregnancy test I have ever seen! Actually camera just died while importing pictures so that will be saved for next time

12dp3dt

Today is Beta day. I went in at 11am to get the blood drawn and sent off. Hoping for good news and going crazy in the process. I am so nervous I feel like I may throw up all over the place.

11dp3dt

My left ovary feels as though it may explode. Keep getting a really sharp crampy pain and it is getting really annoying. I am hoping that it is something associated with pregnancy. This has been D Day for the other 2 cycles, meaning that both cycles on this day the bleeding started. No bleeding today would be considered a victory for me.

Here's hoping that my ovary pain is as far as it goes

10dp3dt

Ok, so I am now 2 days out from my pregnancy test. They are moving at a snails pace. I had a little cramping at 3, 4 and 5 dp3dt and then it stopped. It started again and went from 7dp3dt - 9dp3dt and then again stopped. It is a little weird because this is new for me. The first time cramps at the beginning, then they stopped for like a week and the bleeding started like 4 days before my pregnancy test. Second time nothing until the second week then hella cramps started and so did my period 4 days before my pregnancy test. This time is different, so hopefully that is a good sign! Below are my embryos at transfer before they Assisted them in Hatching. The picture is kinda small on here, but you can see them rather clearly.